As I walk through the rain - Poetry - Jenn Lundell

My Rainbow Eyes - Poetry by Jenn Lundell

As I walk through the rain

As I walk through the rain, the anger pierces through my veins. I’m soaking
wet, the water squishes through my shoes. Where am I going? Where have I
been? Nothing seems to matter except the pain I feel.
The darkness seers itself into my corneas trying the find it’s way through
the unflattering images of pain that have planted themselves into my
memories.

As I walk through the rain, my joints feel like they’re about to pop out of
socket any second. The only thing I have left is memories, the drops of the
cold went rain run into my mouth reliving it from the feeling of cotton if
only the rain could relieve my heart of the excruciating pain and the long
lifeless days that were soon to come.

I look up at clouded sky there was not a star up there. It is just black
full of rain drops squeezing out and pouring into my hands like tears from
heaven it reminded me of my heart, how it must look. I begin to sob even
harder than before. Tears that would never be seen ran down my face as the
water was quick to rush them away. As if trying to make it better but all I
felt was hurting, painful blasts of self-pride, and joy rushing me like
lightning. They say ‘At the end of the day, all is well’ but not today love.
Not tonight…

Jenn Lundell 1-4-02